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Check your mailbox for my new blog @. If i have not emailed you, send me an email and will tell you. Currently there's too much unknown activity on my blog with unknow IP add that i dont recognize. I dont know who reads my blog now. haha...

School's been alright... While walking to school on the 2nd day, the school bus drove past and guess what I saw? My face printed on the school bus. Pretty embarrassing i must say. I've been receiving comments such as  "Lesley I saw your face on the school bus!" "Someone's famous, your face is a walking St Hilda's ad" Been hiding my face in a paper bag. Pretty ironic, the fact that I got into some trouble last sem and now I'm an ambassador for the school? oh well! hmmm...dm's still on my back still... she emailed my personal acc and not my school email. she want to see me tml?  Weird! She spoke to mom on the phone as well on Monday? WHATS GOING ON?

School Play this Friday!! I cant wait! hope it will be good. :)

I think I need a new blog... there's too much activity and unknown IP addresses visiting.

I'm currently back in sg. Came back on Thursday.

Lets just say that my life now is in a complete mess. my life under the microscope to be specific. I have not been in the best of moods lately. So please pardon me. Reporting to DM on a daily basis even though I'm back in sg. The fact that DM told mom that the situation maybe stable at the current moment but can be unstable the next moment. doubt most ppl would understand. i gave up talking about what the current situation is after getting bazaar reactions.

The past 2days hanging out with lyn and teresa would probably be e best thing. :) Seems like bringing back the past where we used to sit around and talk.

I need to study this hols!

Email me if there's anything important. I wont be on msn or blogging that often. Cheers!:)

I'm currently in deep shit with the school to be specific. Got caught hacking into the school system, using Proxy websites to surf the net and lastly crashing the sch internet system(dont ask me how e hell i did it, i had no intentions of doing it.). Which i and * successfully hack in. i'm only banned from the Internet till 6th July and * got suspension for 1 week + banned from e internet till 1st week next term. Mrs Stanley didn't want to strip me off my school title. Well i was hoping she would actually than i wouldnt have to even bother abt sch activities. Oh well... But I'm made to go for counseling weekly from now on. though i can say that i'm already close to my counselor. student body meetings and stuff.

Anyway the school is too stupid for me right now coz i have the a list of passwords and usernames to use to log in. Just that i dont have internet connection from my room directly. But i have an internet wire that is 4m long which can hook onto my friend's room internet pod. seriously TOOO STUPID! I'm actually laughing my ass off now.

Well the 30 boarders are being extremely sweet and they all offered to let me use their internet from their comps. thanks guys! Yes can you believe all 30 yr12 boarders. Cherio! IT Genius! :)

Screwed up results, highest 74% among all my 6 papers. Go Figure! 

Had some talk about medicine and being a doctor as a profession... I must say it was really an eye opener for me. the speaker thoroughly touched on the type of personal qualities needed as well as the qualifications. Honestly I don't think i have the personal qualities required(I'm not much of a patient person). I asked myself why I want to be a doctor and honestly I can't seem find an answer for that question.

 As of today, I've decided not to give medicine a shot. after the talk, I've realized that it isn't something that I want to do. I don't think I have the fervor for it.

Don't worry my results was not the major factor that made me change my mind, its the talk that made me realize it.

on the verge of hitting the wall

Why do you keep saying "its alright, as long as you've tried your best." is this statement meant to be a statement of encouragement or is it meant to make me feel guilty and ashamed of those results. I feel that its the latter. ITS NOT OKIE! The effort I put in doesn't seem to be ever enough. I have approximately 14weeks of school left before my finals. I'm scared and most of all worried. Where am I going to end up at the end of the day?

most of us stayed in today... Recharging after a whicked weekend. School starts tml! Boohoo! most of us partied hard. All i did today was watch ugly betty, yes i completed 23episodes. I went online shopping as well.. 

I'm not looking forward for tml. :S


i quite like this phone.S500i

Friday nite was a blast at metro. CCGS guys and several wesley guys. Music wasnt that bad. Overall e nite great...

This morning woke up with a headache... Slept till 2pm. Dinner at some Italian place at freo. They came over to chill at e balcony.

I've been watching Ugly betty.. Omg its so freaking funny... Just ordered Grey's anatomy 3, The OC season 4 and Desperate HW 3 from amazon. 120+USD! ahhh... my credit card bill is gonna rocket this month. i've been spending quite a bit. :X plus these few days i've been having good food and going out everyday. all that just adds up...

anyway the weekend is coming to and end... Results are coming out on monday. strong feeling tt i'm gonna be contented with my results and probably gonna be in a bad mood. ahhhh! :(  I wished I had a super smart boyfriend who i can call and help me with sch work.

My baby bro hit a Perfect game yday. So proud of him! :) i think its 10 or 15 grand prize money. Dad and i both recieved 15grand each. Hopefully bro gets 15grand as well. :P 

Father, daughter and son with perfect games each! Sounds real wicked and unbelievable. Beat that! :D 

Well done baby bro! i'm proud of you. Lookz like u've reached the target i've set for you. Hitting a Perfect game before the age of 16. :) those who dont know my bro is currently only 14yrs coming 15 in sept. 
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Sch has been rather alright last week. been preparing for exams which starts this coming week. 5 papers and 1 pract exam in 4days. HAHA!  What a nice time table i have. Most of my friends have their time table spread out over 2 weeks. 3 papers each week. Wish i had that. 

Spoke to DM this week as well. She's been helping me cope with my workload and giving me some form of optimism. :) Trying to get DM to talk to Ms Reeson, coz i think rowing is taking too much time. lolz.... 

Ahhh i'm starting to get the hang of physics but not to the depth of applying it to e questions. Freak! I have not touched applic or geog at all yet. Omg! Plus i dont know where i should start my revision for english GAT, :S

I physically survived this week...  but i'm mentally drained. Everyday i wake up tired, I look into the mirror only to find this emo-satisfying demeanor that delinquished my once risible and jovial character.

The 2 physics tests and applic test were jus horrible. Walking out of those tests smelt like definate failure. the marks came out and it didnt prove false to me. I shall keep my fingers cross for chemistry. 

Next week isnt going to be a week that i will be able to breeze right through. I'm being swarmed by tests once again. Another physics test, Calc, applic and Chemistry lab test. Not forgeting the monologue i have to write for english as for an oral. for goodness sake i'm not a drama student and u expect me to write a facile monologue.  

Exam timetable is out
28th may - Physics
29th may - English/GAT
30th may - Applic Maths and Geography
31st may - Chemistry written and Chem practical
1 week break before my last paper
7th June - Calc

Exams are nearing... Yes, i have to remind my dotage brain that i need to work extremely hard. If not disappointment is going to set in at the end of the day. 

I think i shall stop ranting... save you guys the agony of reading more. I have no idea why i'm typing in this kinda tone. if any one can figure...

Why does my spine assume failure? Where is the weapon with which i may fight this apathy?
I need optimism